its been a while

Its been a while, a long while, since I have been able to feel good. Today I can honestly say I am happy and the funny thing is not much has changed in the last few weeks, but my outlook is better.

For starters, my baby girl, my little sissy bug, is potty trained!!!!! I am so proud of her we have gone 5 whole days dry (except night time sleep)She is so big and looking forward to going to school with Miss Elly next year!

Matthew is struggling right now with emotions and listening, I thik alot of it has to do with his allergies, which are horriable. After all, when you feel like crap its hard to be good, right? I have to remeber each day that he isn't being difficult on purpose (most of the time!) we have solved on of our problems of flushing after potty and remebering to wash his hands...We made signs, one of a toilet with water on the back of the door and above the handle, and a picture of hands washing with soap just above the sink. It was so funny the first morning, Matthew went potty just like normal and I listened to see if he would flush and wash, and he DID! he comes running out all excited " Mommy, Mommy, I remembered to flush and wash my hands with soap!!" I asked " how come you remebered?" He was grinning so big when he said " I READ the sign, there's signs to help me remeber!!" it was so cute and felt good to know that we had solved an issue using skills that we are learning, and that just maby all the energy I put into reading about Aspergers children isn't in vain!!!

And Last but not least, My husband......Alot of folks say they look up to our relationship, or are amazed at how we have made it through everything in our marriage, and I can assure you it has not been easy! We have had our share of
"Bad Streaches" most recently in the last few months. Just the other day I realized how much I truly love my Husband, and that no matter what we go through I could never quit, I could never give up on what we have, or on what we will have in the future. I realized that I am lucky, I am loved, and even if My husband is a compleat dork, can't remeber crap, has bad days, can't communicate his emotions, can't always think of how his actions are effecting our family, or just plain pisses me off......he DOESN'T do it on purpose!!!! I know that everything Rob does he does becuase it is all he know's how to do to make me happy (even if it is not what I would have chosen for him to do) I know that his whole reason for doing everything he does is to make a better life for the kids and I. So, on the days when I feel lonley, or like what I am saying or doing is not important to him, I will remember why he does what he does and be greatful that I am loved. On the days when he is sick, when he can't work because his body has let him down again, I will remeber that I am LOVED..........To fate, to God, to our Future, I say....."What are you waiting for??, lets get moving people, I have a life to LIVE and people to LOVE!!"

My lesson for this year? even when Life is unfairly hard, it can still be GOOD!

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